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Its been a while since i left my "big black bored blog"...miss the feeling of hitting the keyboard and squeezing up my mind to fill this empty black space....so now i want to re-enjoy the feeling of hitting and squeezing. I've been out to some places lately....obviously in my blog people know that im a lame person that tries to view life 24 7.....damn boring, but that is me....i love to do so.....so when i went to some of outside world lately i manage to view the real world...

There will be always the best among others, there will always be a king in a country, there will be always a leader in a team, there will always be a water in a sea......and there will always be something that catch your eyes and soul better than anything else....like i said before i have been to some places lately so during my "technology break time" i have saw something that makes me think, what makes people differ in quality? i think this journey has open my mind and clear my sight.

I've been to a place where i had to disgrace my noble effort for 4 times to get the "red book" i was shock and almost died to see the difference of the place compared to the place i usually go.....holy crap, i feel as if im in another world that is not own by human.....it is so futuristic,gigantic,freaking,chaotic, and everything....i feel so small...OK lets not describe the place as it not the main idea....spending some memorable time in that place i see there are some clear,obvious,total,complete difference between the creature that stay in that place compare to my usual playground.....one of thr thing that i notice is that the people is so friendly and helpful.....they know that im not from their wierd planet but they friendly come to me and ask if i need any help, they even help me untill i get what i want, where i want then they continue with their own business, i rarely seen such event in my own planet....they voluntarily come and lend their hand on me....lus another eye ctaching scene is when the creature of the planet can calmly wait for everyone to disembark from the ship then they replace it....they are that patient? i never seen such thing b4 in my planet...every creture will fight for theri rite to get in the ship without thinking about others...y are we so difference? then the environmentr make me feel smaller coz i hardly find a piece of sweet wrapping in the street....this is so difference from my hometown....i hope that if anyone read this post...think about it...why should we act not like a human in other side of the world that can respect and kindly helping others....are we that worst? think about that

This is life....

Again.....i want to view about life....life is really a complicated and unpredicted, no one can have always the same life without cahnging......it is so unique after all. Last 2 days have change my whole perception about life, before i just think that life is all about what u want 2 do and u will enjoy it but if its not what u want it will NEVER makes u feel happy.....note the word NEVER, i never thought that what u didn't favor will turn into something that makes u feel fun.

Let me tell u the most incredible story that has changed my stone head about life.....this is how it goes...i never had an imagination or dream or any prophecy of becoming a teacher, never in my life....but as i am fated to join the field.....i am glad and frankly speaking after almost 4 years being trained in the field, i can feel my parents spirit of teaching have posses me....still the enthusiasm is not sky rocketed yet.....i am trying to reach that level......but a miracle happen that build and inject the booster for me to love this profession to the fullest now....

My friends and i was attending a school in Jitra, SKSAT to guide the standard 6 students about choral speaking....hmmm im not good in it but at least experience is all i have to pour to them about what is choral speaking,it was terrible when almost all of them looks so reluctant to join the activity....for 3 days i can be so loose to them but i blow off at the forth day that makes them feel that they need to join even though they hated me i guess......NVM that is not daddy's problem hahaha.....after being scold and drill they willing to do the choral speaking.....it is just as an activity for them after UPSR actually.

On the last day, i was late to reach the school due to some reason......when i entered the class that i was assigned to, i found that only 5% is in the class.....WTF is this i guess....but what to do as the rest have some kind of trip briefing....ok fine....so i and Miss Ayuni(she was assigned with me) use this valuable time to build a good realtion with the students....after chatting and joking around with them we find that it is easier to tackle and control their behavior compared to before.......now i learn something new in classroom control....but the main point what happen after all their performance.....some of the girls come to me and ayuni......they ordered us to listen carefully to what they are going to said.....suddenly i heard the same line in theri choral speaking is being uttered...the line is "Yes, yes we are proud to be Malaysian" but they have modified it.....the girls confidently look at ayuni and me and said "Yes yes, we are proud to have teachers like u"

i feel very2 pleased, shock, sad, excited and all kinds of feeling....i was holding my eye bag from releasing tears......i never feel happy like this before.....the students have inject the love towards the profession in me as i want to pleased more students and feel appreciated......thanks to all 6 Kenanga students and all my friend for the support for me to proceed with this career

I love teaching profession so much now

Life is funny huh.....

Would we grow up?
If yes, when is it?
If no, why is it?

Damn....this shiznit question really bothers my chillin time....this is all cuz of the effing situation happen in my hood. It goes this way.....while i was chillax with my niggaz suddenly we heard some voice cracking up da thin air and the empty sky.....Whuttadily? i axe....then we saw some fucking wanksta is having a lame scrap.....i dunno whats da reason....then i heard this wanksta yelling at the other wanksta and while others stopping them. Now i can see that one of da wanksta is from the other hood...he try to skool the other nigga....then a thug pull those two wanksta to a room....after a few minutes those jigga come out and one of them yell to warn the wanksta to watch out if he meet him out of his hood....then he bust a line that catch my ears....."i am the stdnt of #$%^&*(!#@!%^&) and those scrap isnt my shit" sku me.....u come to others hood and you claim that bo janglin' isnt ur shit.....and his homies act diss by saying he didnt afraid of the neighborhood....this happen a few hours ago......

The thing that make me feel this life is funny is, isnt tht lame scrap suppose to end when u finish ur scondary skool? it is not that we cannot have 1.....but i think it is funny that we act like a lil kid by doing so....hey come on wake up, we are a tertiary level students....havent we grow yet?if we have grow, that is the best solution we have? if we haven't when are we going to? hmmmmm how funny life is we are supposely able to think wisely now.....but we are going back to the time where we are so stupid that everything is about fighting.....now im not mad or sad but i feel funny to see people act like children or even worst like an animal that only know how to fight.....please clear my doubt about life

Life is vibrant and full of surprise

"Life is vibrant" that's what my friend said....i did not believe it at first but now i believe in it to the fullest. Hmm....never in my life i enter the examination hall with tears, not come out but enter with tears...the first day of my examination in the university i enter the examination hall with tears, i was crying not beacuse im in a university(damn) but i feel like my effort will be in drain if i cannot use my valuable hand to write answers for the exam as 30minutes before the examination, i was stung by a bee....i cant feel my hand and i feel so scared because i feel like that is the end of me because i cannot do the exam......but as i said life is vibrant, full of energy that i feel that is the best moment answering the exam......thank God......but still i hate and hold my grudge towards the bee.

Then i have come across some occasion that makes me feel how vibrant life is, never in my life i studied with friend that i never studied with before but as our life now need us to be more dependent on each other, i feel that life is so vibrant that i manage to be with peoples that never talk about study with me to fight together in our war(exam), what a vibrant life....then one of my buddy's machine broke down but that is when i see our bonding become more close and more meaningful....he willing to lend his highly technological item to our buddy even he cannot use it for a while......can u see how vibrant life is?

Then.....one of my best buddy have some "big event" in his life....a paradigm change, even though the change has made him become someone that people almost hate or maybe hate from someone that is a scenery of the group hahahaha what a big change huh......now due to that our brotherhood become closer and closer....those who we almost lost due to some reason have been brought back into our vibrant life.....so i thank God so much for rewarding all of us a vibrant life....

Life is vibrant, never let it rust in your greediness and selfishness, do make others life vibrant as yours as you will find that your life is more vibrant than ever.....remember that life is short so mkae full use of it.......